sit in church vs actively worship; Big Hearted; taming one' god?

Worship service on Sunday morning: the sense that pew sitters come as spectators, ready to view and be interested in what is served up to them. But this is mistaken, the quality of what comes out depends on those who put something in. In this perhaps a church potluck meal is a better visual image to hold when attending the public worship: each brings something to share and the combined total is impressive indeed! In other words "going to see the worship" actually is going to see oneself and one's peers, not any sort of high falutin, other-worldly performer who promises to wow you.

The two laws and the heart of the matter- Be Big Hearted

The many teachings, examples, and string of events told in the OT and NT all connect to the two commandments: Love God and Love your neighbor as yourself. And these in turn come from the ultimate matter, which is connection (relationship) with God and his/her creation. In practice this very often has not to do with one's thinking part, but one's feeling part: one's intention and emotional responses, thus one's heart: what is in one's heart also will be evident in what one expresses by word and by deed. By this reasoning, the practice/rehearsal of Christianity (a process rather than a final destination) is "heart work." The goal is to become "big hearted" enough to care for other's hearts; not just one's own felt needs.

God in the wild vs Tame God

The measure of one's grasp of God is whether that imagined god is manageable and finite, reliable and predictable on the one hand, or altogether likely to surprise and upturn one's tidy and tame world of routines and relationships. And yet the OT and NT show us the nature of God and how we should develop in our relationship with God and his/her creation. Those instructions and teachings do not change or feel unexpected; the Word as codified as a single bound volume with chapters, verses and more recently, too, subheadings in *not* changeable. Although life experience and changing circumstances of society and the world may affect what is visible and salient in one's own eyes: no matter how many times the hymn is sung, the psalm is chanted or the liturgy is read, still we may be surprised when a long buried inflection or suddenly literal or ironic meaning springs from the page to challenge us or reveal new meanings to our hearts. No, what is liable to surprise us is not the Word and the instructions of how we related to our God. Instead the infinite God will surprise us in our world and individual lives; that part will carry unexpected turns and twists that we then must respond to.

interior or exterior God? roots of Priestdom? all you can eat holiness?

Topics arising in the course of Monday morning men's Bible study 6/3/2013.

interior or exterior God?
Leo Tolstoy's title, "The Kingdom of God is Within You," makes the case that the Lord's Prayer refers to "...Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done, on earth as in heaven" and the true meaning lies in one's building a kingdom in one's own heart; a heart of gratitude, glorifying (but also vigilance) and service. Where then is the split between expending one life on the visible world and on the interior world; knowing there is a link between what is in one's heart and the deeds one does.

roots of Priestdom?
Surely the 1st and 2nd Temples on the Temple Mount had keepers of the Holy of Holies (the inner sanctum) and their job was to intercede on behalf of ordinary believers. And the tribe of Levi had the job of caring for the Arc and sacrifices in the wandering days. There is a path that goes from Temple Judaism to synagogue Judaism and from Rabbi Jesus' "house churches" (ecclesia; primitive Christianity) to the administrative machinery of the Roman Empire under Constantine I. But exactly at what point did the flat "organizational tree" go to Religious Specialists who would intercede for ordinary persons?

"all you can eat" holiness?
For a mortal mind how much holiness can a person take at one time? Thinking of an analogy of "unlimited talk time" (cell phone service plan), or "unlimited bandwidth" (Internet plan), how does one's outlook change when there is no scarcity. Perhaps it is like the full-time resident of a tourist destination who feels content with the *potential* to visit all the events and cultural assets of the fair city, but in practice only does so when entertaining out of town guests. Maybe explaining or describing or articulating one's relgious path and interior life also depends on an interlocutor who is "not from around here;" someone whose knowledge/familiarity can't be taken for granted and must be spoken about step by step. Just so of one's appetite for holiness: there is only so much one's senses can fill up on, and when it surrounds you there is less rarity and less urgency to seek for it.

child of Adam, child of God

In the world of language, logos, logic and human reasoning it seems impossible that a person can be 'dust' and also filled with God's love and power: infinite and eternal. And yet the model Jesus shows covers this spectrum of mortal and divine: he was servant, humble, powerful (healer and voice of God's will) and mostly under control (meek in the full and true sense) --all at the same time. He was learned (Rabbi) and skilled craftsman. He spent some meditative, quiet time and also social time among life's high and low. Thus as a model to follow, we, too, should cross boundaries of This World and Not-of-this-world; Worldly mingling and Not-of-this-world presence of mind. Be "in the word/spirit" but also be "of action."

One keyword is 'meek' (humble but powerful) and dictates how to act in the routines of daily life.

Another keyword is (agape or karitas) 'love' as in "these 3 remain: faith, hope, and love" (karitas/charity) and dictates how to approach the routines of daily life (world view).

measuring spiritual growth

One metaphor is "journey" --everyone heading to the same general destination (earthly extinction), many traveling the same road but stopping and shopping at different points and noticing different things and the conversations along different lines; some travel off-road or go on by-ways instead of the main road. And some go on foot or stretcher, while others go in sportscars or schoolbuses.

How can one intelligently talk about growth of spirit? Do we moderns mean the same thing that people of Dietrich Bonhoffer's circle in the 1930s-40s, or the purposes of the PIlgrims, or the penetrating gaze of Society of Friends (Quakers) and Anabaptists like the followers of Menno, or today's Catholics & Eastern Orthodox?

What is the scope of the idea: the development of one's reach and one's grasp [the hand metaphor], the depth or width of one's vision and understanding [a spatial image], something cumulative and chronological that steps up year by year of the life course? Is movement one-way or do some regress from heights once gained? Will the sequence of steps be fixed, although some skip over and others dwell at length on particular points of the continuum? And will one person's experience be comparable to another's way or is each path scaled to the salient events of each person's circumstances such that no crude indicators will point to one person being "more advanced" than another?

Some clues come from the Bible: things like discernment, wisdom [fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom] and the fruits of the spirit [manifest among those engaged and invested in the Way of God]. But how much is internal [of the heart] and how much is external such that others may perceive? Perhaps the monastery societies have developed ways to detect or self-detect a sort of inventory or spiritual audit in order to mark one's beginning [baseline measurements] and current point and then to indicate what direction to bear towards and what methods to use for the intermediate steps that lead to that end point.

One day there may be a way to do a quick litmus test to see how one is doing at the moment and to compare to one's place in the scheme of life in the past, as well as comparing to one's peers. But in the meantime it seems that a good place to enter the topic of "growth" is to recognize that all this study, thinking and talking accept the relational nature of the religion: love God with all your self, and love your neighbor as your self [neither diminish the one or the other since both are worthy of respect and love]. Thus we may ask of one's fitness or the state of one's spiritual growth, "relationship-wise how are things between you and your God? between you and your fellow persons?"

Here at least, in the field of relationships, we are accustomed to discussing, estimating relative strength or characteristics, and shape or direction of relationships. Certainly relationships involve others, by definition, and they are living, moving things of variable tensions and intentions. They need caring and attention and to some degree will perform according to the amount of energy invested in them. One-sides relationships are not satisfying for either party. Certain relationships you are born into, or otherwise come "as is" and given. But others are entered into and cultivated entirely voluntarily. This difference in basis (voluntary vs involuntary) will tint the quality of what can be undertaken together (pair or larger collection of persons). Relationships are sometimes discussed in terms of flexibility (some are brittle, others resilient), in terms of depth (some are casual and transitory, but others are enduring), in terms of trust (some are deep and unconditional; others not).

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Guven Peter Witteveen, anthroview@gmail.com

; skype address: gpwitteveen

speaking in tongues

Last night I was at the community education building, formerly the middle school, where the monthly meeting of our town's educational foundation was taking place. Since our normal room was occupied, I went searching for a custodian with keys to let us into another room. Along the way, I found one room was set up with speakers mounted at head level and some sort of soothing keyboard music was playing while through the door's window I saw a man gesticulating and from his mouth came a string of syllables that seemed to be 'glossolalia' (speaking in tongues). About the same time a middle-aged woman let herself out from the room's other door in search of some water from the drinking fountain. In a quiet voice to herself she repeated, "thank you, Lord" and "hallelujah."

Needless to say, this seemed incongruous to my mission to find the custodian, although I did vaguely remember that Wednesdays there was a gathering of Christians without a church building of their own.

The experience made me reflect: for non-believers, or those who once believed but no longer practice any habits of the heart, perhaps the elements of church-attendance trigger a similar alien or unfamiliarity when they hear or see Christians expressing themselves in public places. The question arises: how best can one situate one's consciousness and mindfulness between the secular and the sacred world; is there an in-between space, or must one zig and zag between the one and the other?

The Jesus Seminar - True or False?

A prominent purpose of the Jesus Seminar since the middle 1980s has been to sift the teachings and timelines of Jesus from the layers of culture and history that have separated us from times then. But is this misguided Positivism, laboring under the mistaken idea that there is a single or at least relatively more objective way of knowing the meaning and the events of long ago? Or is there value in wrestling with closely read texts, translations and other evidence from physical remains, cultural and linguistic properties, understandings of ritual functions and concepts of purity, along with the facts of geography, flora and fauna? 

As the 12 step plans begin, "the first step to solving a problem is to recognize that there is a problem to begin with." So by problematizing the published Bibles (and commentary literature of the ages and sages) that we routinely accept, perhaps indeed there is a chance of creating space to breath and reflect between us and our times on the one hand and the Word of God on the other. It may be foolish to think that there is one correct understanding of events and teachings. After all, the moment that we rest easy with some certainty of knowledge about God, that is the moment that we have foreclosed all other meanings; making the eternal and infinite fit into the small box of our mortal minds. And yet, the exercise of the Jesus Seminar to apply social & natural science to the ordinary textual tools of analysis does cast the things told into a different light. At the very least it supplies another standpoint to triangulate deeper and fuller meanings and contexts of significance.

Bruce Chilton's Rabbi Jesus (2002) and then Rabbi Paul (2005) show what is possible by focusing events of the Bible through these multiple lenses.

we are swimming to the other side

At the annual Calvin Worship Symposium on Saturday my overwhelming impression was the diversity of organizations (faith traditions) and individual seekers after the LORD. All the energy that goes into maintaining boundaries and enforcing difference could better be spend building bridges and sharing experiences in an effort to see God more clearly, follow him more nearly and love him more dearly, as the lyric goes.

If you were to ask a sample of the attendees, men and women of all ages and home countries/states, what is Christianity is all about, chances are that a few shared practices or at least beliefs would emerge, but beyond that there is likely to be a wide range in depth and breadth of understanding. For some just a few rigid facts hold the religion together, for others the spirit of the thing trumps the details or letter of the law. So for them membership is not to belong to one building, but to the fellowship of all believers.

The closing worship service and communion were majestic in sights and sounds and scale, but underneath all that one can still listen for the still small voice of God.

the little creatures of this world, too

Spotted outside my kitchen window at the edge of my neighbors' land: 'live' trap meant for ridding the town of rabbits, or at least his corner or it. But now detaining a squirrel who appears to have frozen to death in the subzero winds that have come in the past 36 hours... What would Francis of Assisi say now?

Of course this is nothing compared to the meat industry as parodied online at www.themeatrix.com


Then there is the Preface, Old MacDonald's Factory Farm by C. David Coates

Isn't man an amazing animal? He kills wildlife by the millions in order to protect his domestic animals and their feed. Then he kills domestic animals by the billions and eats them. This in turn kills man by the millions, because eating all those animals leads to degenerative --and fatal-- health conditions like heart disease, kidney disease, and cancer. So then man tortures and kills millions more animals to look for cures for these diseases. Elsewhere, millions of other human beings are being killed by hunger and malnutrition because food they could eat is being used to fatten domestic animals. Meanwhile, some people are dying of sad laughter at the absurdity of man, who kills so easily and so violently, and once a year sends out cads praying for "Peace on Earth."

During sermon of Jan 13 (and again 20th): the subdued lighting of a dark morning is overbalanced by the stunning brightness of the LCD lamp.

Maybe it is my sweet-tooth for eye-candy, but my mind kept drifting over to the static image on the wall, rather than to mull the words.

Seated on this morning in the last row gave the feeling of great distance from the sermon. Maybe that is by contrast to my customary location closer up. But I just wonder if there is a connection between physical distance and psychological distancing.

WWJD: contrasting the modern conveniences of our time to that of the early house churches gives one pause to think if we have richer engagement or just more sensory channels for distraction and disengagement.

Bundle of observations to begin 2013

:: Red Herring of Christmas?

Maybe it took over during the dark days of the Industrial Revolution to bring a little cheer to the masses, but whatever the motive and opportunity, somehow the main trajectory of Christianity to dwell on the Holy Week, death and resurrection has been overshadowed by the bright and shiny Christmas story. Of course the advent of God among his people (and attention to Epiphany, therefore) is important and necessary step that makes

possible the main story of public ministry and outcome. But surely the modern day conflation of the birth with ritual gift exchange is disproportionate to larger themes of Christian life and learning. How might the year look with a subdued or otherwise demoted celebration of Christmas? Isn’t it time to get back to the teaching/instruction of Jesus & the model he demonstrated in deeds? All the rest is distraction, dissipation or prone to temptation.

:: Time Presses DownCould it be an artifact of middle age to begin to see people, places and events as part of an expanded timeline, rather than as something contained and defined in the present moment alone? This wider consciousness includes some awareness of the contingent, temporary and uncertain nature of proceedings, too. So, for example, it occurred to me that the Sunday morning worship consists of a few paid participants leading the word and song. But that the attendance from one week to the next ebbs and flows according to willing people who otherwise are not obligated to be elsewhere. In other words, the communal experience of worship is dependent on the willing participation and appearance of all those who occupy the pews from one week tothe next; some weeks are full but others are somewhat sparse. And while it seems unlikely, still there is a possibility on a given week that schedules conflict for almost everyone, with the result that the benches sit practically empty, as one imagines of the huge houses of worship in Europe.

:: Dour Christians?What does a follower of The Christ look like in the course of daily life; in the arc of a lifetime? Popular portrayals including things like: selflessness, plain speaking and presentation-of-self, earnest and optimistic, but also more on the side of seriousness than on the side of levity? Is clear vision and dedicated action compatible with a light heart? Or must a True Believer embrace the lack of beauty and respect and go forward with a heart that is heavy; or at least is not light. One thinks of the images of a jolly friar, the vat quantities of abbey-brewed beer and wine, and the joy of balanced amounts of manual labor among parishioners and monks.

:: Revelation includes “shock and awe” rhythm and textureBut perhaps it is best to wrestle with these passages in the same way as any other pages in the Bible: to ask of the text what the message (upshot) is; ask how it helps us to understand the core of Christian thinking and action about drawing nearer to God in love, and to love one’s neighbor as oneself. From that standpoint, Revelations means that God remains committed to his people (expanded to include more than Jews alone) andthat people should continue to love each other, even in trying times.

:: Balancing “Citizen” and “Pilgrim”Most of one’s waking week and lifetime is lived outside of the Word of God. The weekly worship service normally includes a few passages given as Liturgy. And some people do Bible study alone and with otherson a weekly basis, too. But still the majority of conscious time is spend outside The Word. How would it be the other way around, though? Imagine spending most of one’s  moment to moment awareness steeped in the stories, people and places of The Bible and only enter into concerns of The World once per week for an hour on Sunday mornings (or Friday night at parties, for instance)? Surely times would look very different under these reversed conditions.

:: Trend in communal worship services

The order of worship that each denomination follows probably stems from a time before the Protestant Reformation to the time before the East and West split occurred in the Catholic Church, and before that to the Order of Service at synagogue, since house churches of Primitive Christianity often began with Jews seeking the ways of Rabbi Jesus. So the language shifted from local languages of the house church to the official language of the Roman government after Constantine I. Thereafter Latin prevailed until unofficial and later official edition of the Bible were produced and in use at church services and homes. Finally in the 1960s, after Vatican II, services went from Latin into local languages. The result was to make the distant, mysterious, exotic language of worship become something closer to lived experience.

Similarly of dress styles (a little more casual) and sermon style (increasingly conversational), there seems to be a trend to reduce the gap between experience in The World and experience in Worship. The question then is how far can the shift away from bounded, sacred space and toward informal, stream of (consumer) consciousness: will one style come to colonize the other so that The World includes the heart of Jesus interpersonally, or the reverse in which The World takes over the environment of church activity, intention and experience?

:: Hunger for meaning (own perspective on the world) & significance (received meaningfulness)

One of the defining characteristics of humans is to make meaning of one’s present circumstances and the motivation to intend meanings in one’s prospective circumstances. In this arena, it could be that one can satisfy this urge best by having a wide assortment of concepts, experiences and visual exposure (sort of a personal gray matter database), as well as practice in talking with others about such things. Many people both expand their world of experience and gain practice with the terms by going to college. Traveling has long been seen as a form of life-learning, as well. So there may be some real differences between a person lacking the stimulation of college or travel (or voracious reading and/or discussions; purposeful and structured Internet browsing, watching, reading and engaging others, too) and a person who has all those things at a typical level, or at an extensive level; namely, that the person with the benefit of these experiences/education may be expected to have more ways and more models for finding or making meaning from the circumstances that he or she faces on the path of life.

Looking for one subset of learning, what difference might there be for a person who actively seeks answers of the Bible and the people, places and things of Christian (Jewish, Muslim) history and culture, on the one hand, and a person who does not seek answers to these things. If the same generalization is true from above, then the difference results in the Big Learner having more tools for making meaning than the Small Learner. The former has a wider vision, a deeper understanding, and has more pieces to build a picture of the subject than the other person. In short, it is easier to detect connections, see patterns and understand relationships when you have a big pool of experience to draw from than when your pool of learning is restricted. Thinking like a mathematician, what is the trend as you increase the volume of learning to the Nth degree, approaching infinity (that is infinite knowledge and connections of languages, ideas, events): will the ability to make meaning also grow until everything is connected and all is one? Or is there some moment before that point corresponding to some sort of Enlightenment?

spiritual growth: consumer, producer, bricoleur?

The opening lines to the welcome meeting in grad school included something like, "as undergraduates you were consumers of scholarly writings, but now you will learn to produce this work for others to read." This distinction between consumer/reader/listener/student and producer/author/maker applies equally well to Sunday morning worship experiences: most sit back and expect to receive some truths, or some beauty and mystery. But a few set forward, on the edge of the seat or are poised ready to jot ideas and margin notes to the words sung or spoken. Those interactive worshipers constitute a third category: neither consumer entirely, nor fully ready to take the podium and hold forth on a subject. Maybe the best word for those who go beyond just listening is 'bricoleur'. This term was readapted by Claude Levi-Straus to mean the way that people creatively take the things found in their environment and use them for whatever purpose is at hand. In today's Internet language this is the idea of 'repurposing' a tool or material in a way different to what it originally was intended for. So while a brick was meant for building with mortar, it can also be piled up to form a temporary base for grilling over hot coals.And while a paper milk carton holds milk. Later the bright design may be used for craft or decorative purpose. Just so with the words and images of a worship service: when an active listener takes them from the confines of the worship hall out into the world of one's lived experience, sometimes a creative bricolage results: the old idea takes on new meaning or insight in the new situation.

Normally a person wends his or her way to the weekly worship and cycles through a similar routine of stand up, sit down, sing, sing, sing. A certain satisfaction comes from finding things week to week much the same; expectations are fulfilled, appetites are satisfied instead of merely being whetted to make one's hunger grow stronger. Taking the role of consumer who comes to the place of worship in order to pick something up, all attention is directed outward and forward, looking out for the desired elements. And yet, what if things are quite the reverse; as Leo Tolstoy's title declares, The Kingdom of God is within You.

The Lord's Prayer's pray says ...[and may it be that] Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven. So if this kingdom of God is within you, then the Sunday worshipers are misdirecting their gaze. Instead of looking in front of them to the person in the pulpit or the singer near the altar space, the congregants would do better to look inside themselves! Assembling for weekly shared praise and thanksgiving should not be about taking one's seat and sitting back to consume what has been prepared. Instead it should be more like a potluck feast, in which all attending will have prepared something to share; and for the communal benefit. If we cannot all be producers, at least we all can be bricoleurs who take the elements of our lives and readapt them for use in the work of building spiritual growth in ourselves and others.

In other words, practically everybody is accustomed to attending church with the expectation that "it" [the thing they may be actively searching for, or the thing that motivated them long ago to begin seeking and now is only the echo of that original seeking cry] can be found in the time and place of a particular sanctuary during the worship service. In other words, the "it" that they seek is assumed to be external and requires looking to the front of the sanctuary. But suppose all these externals of the Order of Service and the design of the interior spaces merely are a kind of scaffolding that arranges the flow of experience and participation such that a person has an entryway into an interior place of reflection and risking and resolving to hold a certain attitude and enact certain plans or a readiness to seize certain opportunities when they should arise. What if the whole institutional worshiping exercise is something of a mirror to one's own heart? That is, what if the kingdom of God is within you? In that case, all the externals are in support of that greater and ultimate site of spiritual construction: one's heart (and mind)? Church, then, is not a place to go for answers, but merely the arrangement of equipment and tools and mentors that can help each person to do their own workout. Church is not for spectators but for players; not for consumers but for producers and bricoleurs; it is for participating. It is as George Fox wrote in his 1660 autobiography: each person has the authority and wherewithal to engage with God and his or her Neighbor; to grow in these relationships by a heart of love.

Three things to grow

Recent men's Bible Study conversation brought up the idea that a person needs three sorts of things to propel him or herself forward with spiritual development and exercise:

1. Word of God (read Bible with eyes or lips, wrestle with the meanings)
2. Worship regularly with others (not a private, but social experience of praise & thanks)
3. Fellowship (not to go it alone, but to live out the meanings with others interdependently)

So as one moves through the 3 physical dimensions of space and across the passage of time, the meanings recorded in ink and written in parts on a person's heart as well; the interaction and service to others & from others, and the repeating celebration in communal worship all play a part. Lacking one of the legs of this tripod will delay the stream of challenges and resolutions that comprise a life well lived.

Holy spirit in action? Board Meeting.

The regular meeting of the leadership group, the Board of Ministries (BoM), held an eventful session recently in order to balance the 2013 budget in the face of rising utilities and health insurance costs, despite fixed income sources and expanded programming initiatives. As well there had been financial mismanagement that had been discovered earlier and was now to be given final settlement.

So the session began with a prayer, including a reading of James 3 in which 'wisdom' is defined and the dangers of a spiteful tongue or careless remark are spotlighted.

Here were a dozen or so well educated and active, responsible members of the business and professional community coming together in a voluntary association to conduct the church's business. Things proceeded amicably, but with deliberateness and little levity. QUESTION: with or without any empirical presence of the Comforter, the Holy Ghost, the session unfolded. So is the mere supposition of this guiding spirit enough to produce the same outcome, regardless of the actual presence of same?

Expanding on this suppositional view, is the assumption of Good and Righteousness functionally the same as actually having those active forces in our hearts/minds? Can a community of believers by dint of their strong will to bring Thy Kingdom Come into the world enough to actually cause it to become so? And do the daily ranks of Tibetan Monks praying for world peace, therefore, perforce, tip things in that direction through sheer force of will/intention?

sermon Dec 2 - all the fuss about decorating Christmas

[A] On the one hand the visual effect of all the greenery and lighting cheers up the gloom of approaching winter solstice.

But on the other hand this sensory stimulation and cue of past memories of family and giving/receiving presents is a distraction (temptation?) from the everyday message, and the Christ birth message, that should be uppermost in prominence.

There remain the old questions: 

1. WWJD (what would Jesus do?) --how would he make sense of the full-blown industrial production of "the Christmas season"

2. If you met Jesus, what would you talk about; what would you want to know? Surely the proliferation of The Christianity Establishment, franchises, commodities, denominations, and hierarchies or specialists would be something to filter through his original experiences and the world of primitive Christian churches. After all, he was a (fulfilled) Jew, not a Christian as such.

3. If you met a curious foreigner or extraterrestrial would was filled with sincere curiosity and respectfully asked you to describe the main ideas and parts of Christianity, how would you begin. On the one hand it is a simple message: God loves you in full grace and you have only to accept that love, and to extend it to those around you. But on the other hand there are lots of legacies, details, and splitting of hairs for doctrine, practices and feelings.                                                      

[B] Communion was served to day. For an onlooker unfamiliar with the ritual, it must seem strange to take such pains with bits of bread slowly chewed and a sip of the juice of the grape in synchrony.

But the functions of rituals are many. One of these is to slow down the normal, taken-for-granted habits of throwing back food. Some participants will dwell on the historic act that is commemorated, others feel the shared experience of brothers and sisters around the room and those around the world, still others will focus on the essence of creation embodied in these two sources -the grain and the grape. It is possible that some take away the message of belonging to purity and those elected to moral superiority. But others may feel the humility that the symbols represent: the master taking the position of the servant, producing the feeling of gratitude on both sides -the giver and the receiver, bound together in this action.

[C] Sermon snippet: that some people come each week to regain some inspiration and gladness. The worship experience reproduces the right frame of mind and gives some forward motion to one's week.
Others engage with the thinking and discussion of the liturgy and sermon: weaving their fingers of mortal logic around the events and meditation. And yet, ultimately God's ways by definition will exceed or defy our small logic. So perhaps some participants also accept the glimpses of divine craziness that fly as sparks from the pulpit when flint meets metal.

topics 27 Nov 2012 - Tuesday Men's Bible Study

Started the book of TITUS: probably written in the A.D. 60s or later to Titus on Crete from Paul, but in a style suitable for out loud reading to groups of Christ followers on the big, rugged island.
 
-"encourage and rebuke with authority" (not speaking from your own authority, but that of God's holy spirit; based on relationship and intended with love/integrity/sincerity, not moral superiority or its ironic inverse)
 
-Jesus as 'fulfilled Jew' --nothing new, but reasserting the *spirit* of God's convenant with his people (and all people, not only his chosen people): grace given by God for each person to hold; relational
 
-linkage of head knowledge (doctrine/logic/detail; 'saber' in Spanish), heart knowledge (feeling and attitude; experiential rather than verbally articulated; 'conocer' in Spanish) and action: each of these is tied together, like the seed and what fruits, like the innermost heart and the words and deeds that emerge, so too one's mental picture and one's orienting attitude/assumptions and one's train of actions.
 
-The letter lists the behaviors to prohibit; one's that lead away from holiness. But to give a list of prohibitions without revealing the active principle behind them is not very effective.

not Eat, Pray, Love but instead Help! Thanks! Wow!

http://www.npr.org/2012/11/19/164814269/anne-lamott-distills-prayer-into-help-thanks-wow [I see so many titles at amazon.com by this same Anne Lamott; pun on "le mot" (the Word)?]

This author interview provokes thought and fits nicely with yesterday's finale in the 5 part sermon series about prayer at our church, fccsj.com

In order to make some of the sermon ideas real and to personalize them in practical habits, a set of small groups met on different days and times so that as many who wanted to participate could do so conveniently. From this repeated experience of guided prayer, conversation, reflection, readings and singing, I could understand the simple message about prayer "anytime, anywhere, and for any reason." So instead of waiting to be prompted at a formal dinner setting by the host, or invited to Be in a Spirit of Prayer during the service of worship, now I find myself at unexpected times thinking to myself, "this merits prayer," right here, right now; without any ado. Slowly the feeling of an appetite or hunger for prayer has emerged so that I "need" a moment to give thanks, offer up praise, or just think 'wow'. This sort of grateful and mindful heart adds a lot to the day.

Imagine a daily experience that is topsy-turvey, such that most of your moment to moment thinking is an extended prayer or prayer-like care for events around you and the people you interact with. By contrast, only a couple moment would be the altered state of consciousness lacking this prayerful mindset; using the consumer worldview for a moment before going back to the "normal" perspective of prayer-in-motion. One's life *as a lived prayer*. How different the day would look and the priorities appear when taken in this way.

Truth/beauty as well as Holiness have come up again and again in the course of the sermon series, either directly or indirectly. This hearkens back to the observation I made as a stranger in a strange land this past summer teaching a short-course in westernmost China. Seeing the daily rush and rumble of life in the capital of Urumqi and the many people of the 13 ethnic groups there, I wondered what it is beyond the survival needs and social obligations being fulfilled that ultimately motivates a person, no matter the age, gender, economic condition or social status. The two things that floated to the top of my mind were a hunger for respect [peer-source] and a love of beauty, whether if comes from pleasing sounds, sights, tastes, smells or 'atmosphere' one inhabits. Perhaps these two hungers we want to satisfy day by day really amount to the divine; a love of the Creator, who is composed of pure respect + beauty/truth/justice/mercy/power.

Tuesday men's bible study Oct 9 - prayer

Praying for open interchange. Operative word: open.

 

Let me be open to the opportunities all around me: Give me eyes that see clearly, ears that are open, and a heart ready to respond and feel and care. But also let me be open as a channel for others to see in my person and my example something of value that heartens them. This free flow helps each one to communicate better to one's neighbors and to God. It is instrumental in cultivating the central relationship of the living all across God's creation.

heart-ology (core of being as basis for God relationship)

Heart-ology: that subject of all Jesus' teaching

 

In discovering and building one's relationship to God the central location for hard work and "bottom line" is one's heart. But this choice of word brings up images of the body's pumping mechanism, of Valentines cut outs and stories of romance or feats of loyalty. So rather than say 'heart' perhaps a better word is "one's core or deepest center."

 

[emotional or moral center, as contrasted with intellectual response; one's personality or disposition]

 

Consider the many forms and expressions that include the word 'heart'.

 

Hearty, heart-felt, heart-rending, heartless, good-hearted, cold-hearted, warm-hearted (cold hands warm heart), take heart, disheartening, heart of the matter, heart-and-soul, big hearted, chicken hearted, tender (soft) hearted, hard hearted, in my heart of hearts (innermost heart), evil hearted, black hearted, heart weary, heavy hearted, heart sick, heart breaking, heart to heart, lose heart, play with heart, learn by heart, take to heart

 

In summary, the task before each person who seeks to know God's character and thus develop the relationship with God has to dwell on what lies in her or his own heart: are actions motivated for self-glory or God's glory, does one go forth to compare efforts to peers or to please God, when reflecting on the results of one's work is it to seek approval (trophies for one's moral scoreboard) or for another reason. As the story of the Widow's Mite tells us (and Paul touches in 2^nd Corinthians), the intention and habit of the heart to give to others and to God's glory is the goal. It is what is intended and internal that matters most to God, not the particulars of size or price tag.

 

So the biggest work while we walk the earth is to discover and then nurture one's affinity to the creator, mainly by attending to what is in one's heart: humble (meek), sincere, ardent and abiding in times that are good and times that are bad. As such the enterprise is about one's core being, one's identity, one's lifestyle (exterior) and approach to the lifecourse (interior)… these three remain: Faith, Hope and Charity [love]. But of these the greatest is Charity.

 

Each of these key words tie into one's core, one's essence, that which lies in one's heart. FAITH for that which cannot be directly seen or known calls for a calm and resolute heart. HOPE for that which is not yet present or arrived. And CHARITY or LOVE for those around you similarly so engaged in the work of the living of the world, to reach out and encourage (hearten) one another.

 

We need to be in the business of knowing our own heart, and those of our neighbors; maybe even that of God? In short, we need to know normal developmental stages and maladies that depart from that normal maturation. We need to know what nourishes and that what impoverishes a person's heart. We need to grasp how heart relates to mind; mind to spirit; spirit to soul; soul to body; body to heart.

M.O. (modus op..) (Motive + Opportunity)

From watching detective shows and "Mystery!" on PBS TV, I know that figuring out the context and events of a crime require both a motive and opportunity to bring the chain of events into action. Transferring this same way of thinking to action in God's world, it seem there are countless daily opportunities to be a witness or example, to apply your skills, time, care and money to small and long-term miseries. Maybe we need help to recognize or realize an opportunity when we see it (hiding in plain view; unintended consequences of comment or action we ourselves have set in motion), but probably the bigger ingredient that we lack is the motive. That is, with so many distractions and myriad details of complicated, wired and wireless, financially interwoven lives, there is a certain fatigue in one's waking mind. We fail to care or even perceive pain around us. As a result our eyes and minds skim past other people's problems and maybe our own in order to get to the next attention grabbing thing in our paths. So the way to bring motive and opportunity together to commit a Christ-like act is to explore our hearts until we discover something that causes (e)motion and moves us to react to the opportunities in our reach.

WWPD ---What Would Paul Do?

The catch-phrase WWJD (what would Jesus do... in this instance of my life) is a portable and painless way to challenge yourself to consider options before you; of how to respond, or how to take initiative in some matter. The effect is to make you more mindful and deliberate; purposeful in your daily and longer scale living, speaking, thinking and aspiring. After all, the key message of Love your God; Love your neighbor as yourself and the example of Turn the Other Cheek are good ways to reflect back on ourselves.

But reading and discussing 1 and 2 Corinthians the past few weeks, it occurred to me today that all the firm but caring advice that Paul writes to the fledgling congregation(s) at the city of Corinth could also be a useful check on one's own personal and congregational life. His key message comes up in various ways again and again: it stems from his experience of being a high level religious functionary who was thrown off his donkey and blinded on the road to Damascus. He dwells on righteousness and reconciling oneself to conform with the Lord's will; realigning oneself to be true and in tune with The One. Paul also has detailed observations and correctives on matters of interpersonal relationships, order of service, manner of praying and so on. So taken as a summary, WWPD is a quick way to reflect on the workings of one's own congregations and of one's personal path.

FCC Men’s Bible Study –September 18, 2012

1 Q. What to focus one’s direction and intention upon. Master message is “Love God and seek after Him with all your heart; love your neighbor as yourself,” but there are so many other things highlighted in NT as important messages and guidelines, too.

A. The foundation for all other thinking and feeling and action is Fear God in the sense of awe and glory and belonging. Based on that heartfelt grasp then the rest falls into place.

2 Q. Perhaps the weekly gathering and wrestling (literal meaning of ‘Israel’ is L god + Isra wrestling) with the Bible lines *is* the destination we strive for; in other words, we have already “arrived” at the place where we are aiming for.

A. The relationship to the collective Body of Christ, his hands and feet in the world is a living and ongoing one, rather than something to enter into and check off as “git ‘er done.” So you never actually arrive at a complete and full understanding of God’s Will. Instead you keep your ears and eyes open, actively seeking and reflecting and acting. On one hand you seek answers and guidance. On the other hand you make some conclusions and decisions (a working, “draft” comprehension of the whole matter of relating and growing the connection to God and his children). This cycle of looking for answers, but then having some (temporary) answers is exactly what the Tuesday bible study circle allows: asking and answering, then coming back the next week to do the wrestling again. As such, this perpetual state of seeking and (temporary) knowing *is* the living and pulsing condition that is optimal; it *is* what a person who actively cultivates a relationship does.

3 Q. Facing God with a “fearful” heart (awe, joy, glory) is the core that all else follows from: Love, relationship, drawing near, mercy, and so on. So how can we understand God’s enduring love for his children, but also his OT vengeful impassioned fear that He causes in us?

A. This open-ended, ambivalent condition *is* the basis for a living God that cannot be defined or stuffed into a simple box of our own minds. At the same time we unconditionally love him but we hesitate from anxiety about his power. We know him but we can never encompass him. He is here now personally in and of us, but also he is every place and every time. None of this fits into mortal logic and words, but it is God and is alive and in motion, never to be pinned down or confined with tidy labeling. This God is not tamed, but instead is wild.

4 Q. How are intention, words and deeds connected in someone who is tuned into God’s will?

A. We fulfill the intention/awareness by trusting in the authority granted by God to do his work. Faith without works is an incomplete expression of one’s live relationship with God. We consummate the interaction by deeds. However “clanging like a gong” for going through the motions of a good deed, but without one’s heart in it fails, too. Serving others by giving one’s time, talent, money and so on must also include presence of heart and mind, too. Empty words and empty deeds are just that; absent of value.

5 Q. What is the difference between a beginner and a person long practiced in wrestling with the Word of God? After all, both hear the same text and neither can expect to comprehend the meaning in total.

A. Much like the person deeply invested in a hobby or a person who has traveled the path the most often, so too the person who returns again and again to the Word of God. She or he has a wider base of experience and examples to incorporate. The big picture is ever more complete in a finer and finer gradation, and the boundaries are ever wider. The result is the wise person now has such a broad canvas and so many subtle color shadings that the picture is increasingly detailed and vivid. What once were shadowy outlines now are well defined. What once seemed frozen in time now can be seen processually as something that began modestly and grew and grew, but which will once day be discarded and of little absolute or eternal value. In summary, the mind of experience can see the many parts and how they work across time to form the whole. Neither the beginner nor the old-timer can take their worldly accumulations or their intellectual gains with them when they die. But to strive to know God better and better still is worth the effort, because the person of experience produces a better vision to guide personal and group decisions and ongoing governance.

6 Q. We live in a pagan [possibly god-fearing, possibly god-denying, possibly god-agnostic] world and share the minority status of persecution from public acknowledgement and respect in a small way that the early Christians did; not to the point of being fodder for the lions and amusement for the worldly power-holders, but yes in the sense of losing the best seat at the table and being dismissed to the periphery of the feast of life. How to respond to this challenge of our time?

A. This is an open question but includes responses such as the Emerging Church movement of the past 20-30 years: getting back to basics, simplifying the clutter and prerequisites in order to satisfy the more important message and functions of worshiping together. Clues might come from other persecuted groups in this society: African-Americans/civil rights, Suffragettes (women’s rights), Religious communities (Mormons, Shakers/Quakers), Gay rights people, ADA-disabled people and so on. Now it is Christians who need to “come out of the closest” and publicly declare with pride and self-worth who they are.

why revisit the Bible; why seek truths in sermon?

Weekly men's bible study prompted this question:

The message is so simple (Love God; Love Thy Neighbor as Thyself). But no matter how many times we 'study' the Bible, it seems that we never figure it out, as we might expect of other books, whether novels or non-fiction. So perhaps "study" is the wrong way to consider the repeated Bible Study experiences. And perhaps the form of binding into book form and chapter organization misleads us to consider what is found there to resemble other books that we have known. Instead the revisiting of the stories, teachings, examples, parables and so forth is more akin to a living relationship: what you bring to it across the life course will alter the relationship and what you are capable of seeings/knowing and what is hidden from plain sight. In sum, getting to know the Bible and the path is lays to God is like that old image of The Vine: as long as you are attached in this relationship you will live/thrive. But when cut off then you whither and die.

Caution when opening a Bible:


For the word of God is living and active and sharper than any double-edged sword, and piercing as far as the division of soul and spirit, both joints and marrow, and able to judge the reflections and thoughts of the heart. (Heb 4:12 LEB).

[taken from preface, http://lexhamenglishbible.com/preface/ ]

...the reader should remember that any Bible translation, to be useful to the person using it, must actually be read. We encourage every user of the LEB, whether reading it alongside the original languages text or not, to remember that once we understand the meaning of a biblical text we are responsible to apply it first in our own lives, and then to share it with those around us.

habits of heart, Bible study 8/28/2012

The struggle to keep focused on God and doing God's work is won in small spaces and fleeting moments as much as in the Great Works and big plans.
Guys around the table gave several related illustrations of this moment of meaning when one person can touch another person for the good of God:
 
C. said: When talking with person he listens with his heart -not what the person is telling or asking, but just how they are being; what their overall place in life seems to be; if they are hurting in some way.
 
J. said: Some people do not lie down for bed or get up in the morning without praying as a reminder of what is uppermost amid the details of one's life.
 
A. said: He likes to hold the door and urge a person inside with the phrase "beauty before age" and that surprising gift of praise sets a person off balance sometimes, causing a smile that is authentically felt and given back.
 
These examples reminded me of the power of a small phrase learned in a parenting class: when a child makes a demand or objection, "that may be so" is a small but redirective phrase that works like judo by taking the energy of the person and steering it out of the way. Similarly a small decision or incident or unexpected turn of events can have far-reaching unintended consequences that set a project or relationship off course: the phone call that comes in just as you prepared to leave the house caused a momentary delay in departure and therefore a road accident or avoidance of one further in the sequence of events that followed, for instance. The well worn historian's illustration of the loose hoofnail leading to the king's horse throwing a shoe and altering its performance on the field of battle is another example of a small action, word or look that can redirect things.
 
By being aware of such small ways all around us, we can materially shape ourselves and those around us. This much, at least, is in each person's hands; while the Big Works may be out of one's reach.
Somehow one has to break the compartmental week so that God is everywhere and everyday.

men's bible study 31 july 2012

All about "love is..." as Paul tells the people of Corinth (I Corinthians 13).

1. The original Greek was written or dictated to the faithful/seekers/curious of sin-city Cornith who knew Greek.

2. The original term was ('karitas'?/charity=grace; as in King James: these 3 remain - failth, hope, charity) AGAPE (not philos, eros, or the 4th one)

3. Since "God IS love" then God is AGAPE (love for strangers in all shapes and sizes, all faiths and experiences of worldly fame or ill repute; love of family on a par with love of enemies and strangers now dead and those yet to be born). And therefore, if the object of Bible study is to wrestle with the Word, including the Word Made Flesh, then we English speakers need some exercises and aids that will help to untangle AGAPE-God's-love from all the other uses, especially that love we crave in the eyes of family and friends (respect, dignity, significance that one's words and life example matters in some small way). In sum, to grasp "Thy Kingdom... on earth as it is in heaven" we need to understand this AGAPE Love.

4. One of God's 99 (or more) names is "I Am" and so if the core of God's character and stuff is this Ground of Being (IS 'ness) consists of AGAPE Love, then by definition all that EXISTS is thrumming with IS'ness and that hum IS Agape love. God is. God is love. And so the simple command that each child of God is to Love Your God (to return that one-way Agape Love) and to love your neighbor as yourself [extend the Agape Love equally to oneself and to others: bathe one and all in a full-body BEING and goodness] now comes down to (1) awareness of the surrounding climate of love that we all swim in equally, and (2) that as the hands and feet and face of God during our brief three-score and ten years on the planet, that we should echo and express that same surrounding climate of love, extended to all.

5. In order to establish habits of heart that make the highest priority this Agape Love (awareness of it and also expression/enacting of it), we need to help one another to stay on track (not to 'sin' off course). Many varieties of Intentional Communities, including the long and wide line of Anabaptists, Shakers, and the monastic withdrawl from The World (as well as those "in The World but not of it") have tried to make a scaffolding to help build Thy Kingdom... on earth as it is in heaven. And yet things somehow don't work: is Agape Love best in small flashes of glory and spontaneous expressions? Does it wither in an intentionally cultivated community?

Bible Study on May 29 - Paul/corinthians

Men's Tuesday morning Bible study, May 29, 2012

<> The marvel of transmission of books, letters, gospels, etc. from the time of 1^st century A.D. until NT (and OT?) canon formed at Council of Nicaea. Some was on paper/papyrus/velum, but other via oral tradition among house-churches. Somehow the Word spread, was wrestled with, was recited, was interpreted for meanings that applied to people of the particular place and time, and comprised part of the personalized relationship to one's brothers/sisters in Christ and to one's maker.

<> Doing right by peers (audience/point of reference: what will people say or think of me; at least I'm a little better relative to so-and-so; wanting to meet so-and-so's expectations of me/make merit in their eyes) versus doing right by The Creator. Your integrity should strengthen your relationship (mutual respect and aid; concern and effort made on the other's behalf; getting to know the other) to God. And so when there appears to be a conflict, think first of doing right by God and in so doing things will eventually be right with peers: ask, "Who is my audience; who am I trying to impress and find favor with."

<> "The Way" of Jesus as 'a promotable brand' in the marketing language of today: one can often be most effective as God's hands and feet in the world by standing up for integrity and righteousness (but not self-righteousness or lording one's feeling of moral superiority over someone else). In other words it may be that the greatest influence is one on one, rather than publication or public speaking opportunities. By being true to one's relationship to God, actions and words will follow. It is a personal struggle (one's Jihad in the basic sense) to stick to the relationship to one's maker. It is not a political plank of one's promised platform. It can be declared or come out as the answer to questions being thrown in one's path. But one does not lead with this badge of identity. One is first of all a child of God (looking there for direction and comfort) and then also a brother/sister in Christ. To be spokesman for God is a rare thing, indeed, not an everyday position.

<>Paul's letters perform a spiritual audit among the several churches that he knew and nurtured. He diagnoses or addresses specific wrongs in each congregation. Today, too, there are hierarchies among some denominations that have a similar functionary to point out the shortcomings and to help to restore the right way. Surely this pastoral role of the flock continued from Paul's time to our own time. But the writings we study are limited to the decades around the time of Jesus the mortal Christ. This spiritual audit is something needed then as it is now, but when we study the Bible, it is as if those Biblical Days were different to now and only in those decades would such assessment and guidance be possible.

schizophrenia of worship vs. work week

Men’s Tuesday morning Bible study, May 22, 2012

<>Paul’s letter to the Corinthians: These are the answers, but what were the questions he was responding to? Since his words appear in the Bible we give special weight to them, but unlike the prophets and other Wisdom Books, The Laws, The Histories and so forth in the OT; and unlike the words attributed to Jesus, these writings of Paul are less directly part of God the creator. Instead his words are closer to our own: we strive and proclaim, we praise and give thanks, we fellowship and guide one another. In this sense these epistles and other elements of the Bible are more like a workbook than a holy object of veneration and instruction. In other words, rather than to take the attitude that the Bible is composed of sacred pages of uniform truth value and origins, instead we should adopt a position in which we are free to wrestle with the meanings and actively interrogate the messages. The uses of the Bible are living and suited to each generation, as well as fitting to each person’s chapter of life. While the word does not change, what each person and each historical moment brings to the text will affect the meanings understood. So we should not put the Bible on a pedestal. Rather, we should wear it out by repeated use. It is not meant to be honored only. Instead it is meant to be consulted and questioned; it is meant to live in our daily relationships with believers and with strangers. We are Paul in the sense that we, too, have the interests of our fellow Christians in mind. We, too, should declare and pronounce the message. It is not enough that we quote or refer to it. Moreover we must own it and author our own meanings from its unchanging message.

<>Segregating spiritual and worldly lives. Perhaps there never was a seamless oneness of secular and sacred habits and awareness. Before science and technology gave mass consumers a feeling of mastery and omniscience, the line between worldly and supernatural divinity was blurred and not confined to moments of life crisis or the cycle of holy days. But in our time the lines seem rigid and impermeable. And within one’s own biographical lifecourse, not everyone has opportunity or motivation to walk a spiritual path. Among those who do, will the majority or the few break down this wall that separates the dominion of God from the dominion of Caesar? Surely there seems to be a set of parallel splits: (1) one’s heart vs. one’s external responsibilities and ambitions, (2) one’s private concerns vs. one’s public persona, (3) Sabbath/Sunday vs. the other days.

machine for living... machine for praising?

Architect Frank Lloyd Wright was quoted as calling his house design "a machine for living;" that is, the physical facts of location and line of sight, conveniences or barriers to flow, gathering, communication and so on will cumulatively allow its residents to live well or to live at a disadvantage. So there is bound to be a consequence between physical conditions, environment; social ecosystem and one's interior, mental and spiritual life. In the same way, perhaps one can speak of the physical and programmatic structures and rhythms in a church of believers are helping or hindering the strong development and expression of one's spiritual heart; of one's opportunities for mutual dependence (fellowship), praise and giving thanks. Where does your community of belief fit along this spectrum: more of a supporting framework, or a series of active distractions? Indeed, is your worship life a "machine for praising"?

men's bible study 15 May 2012

<>God's power… wisdom… discernment. How do these things differ? Discernment is an ability to receive and perceive the core of a matter and to know its significance, including consequences that follow. That is probably a prerequisite to Wisdom since the distillation of knowledge and circumstances depends on perceptiveness and then the courage and decisiveness to take action, ideally proactively rather than after the thing occurs. Knowledge is to anatomy as wisdom is to physiology and  ontogeny. In other words, building up a picture of a subject in one's mind is knowledge. But then understanding the developmental phases and crucial timing (and rhythm and harmony) of matters is an active, living, personal and context-filled matter; not something abstract and frozen in time.

<>Epistles: general message vs. personal response (or the first in a series of correspondence for which we have only this part of that chain). Philemon is a personal letter all about the matters concerning the writer and reader. But the circulating, general epistles like those to the church/eklesia at Corinth, Thessalonica, Ephesus and so forth were written as an open letter with messages in general, not limited to specifically named persons and gatherings. So it is fair today to seek deeper or wider meanings that just the layers between immediate writer and reader(s).

<>Writing to the Greeks at Corinth, Thessalonica, Ephesus and so on. Paul was fluent and learned in Greek so he could use their own medicine (worldliness, guru model of philosophy, search for esoteric  knowledge as key to higher consciousness or eternity) against them. But what about letters to non-Greeks: Persians, Zoroastrians, Jews, Egyptians, Carthaginians, Phoenicians, etc? Would those (general, circulating/open) letters also speak in the terms that preoccupied those readers/hearers? Example?

<>Gutenberg's crutch: we depend on printed Word of God instead of memory/learning by-heart. Does this externalize the Word from our hearts? In time of crisis, do we have a few verses to call on by heart, or must we reach for a (printed) Bible? By deliberating passages and looking of word usage/roots, are we brought closer or deeper to God's heart, or on the contrary do we insert more and more minutia that introduces distance from God's will and His creation.

early May 2012: wisdom, social justice, God got out of the box

<>Caution – this God is alive and untamed and won't stay in the box where we keep him

What if the entrance to the worship space contained the following sort of consumer warning: This God is alive and wild. You may be subject to awe or terrible glory. Flights of rapture have been reported. The music is not just music of beauty or pleasure. It could reveal unexpected insight, joy or disorientation of routine habits of thinking and living. Enter at your own risk. Your relationship to God is serious and could change your life forever.

   Such an odd framework to a weekly routine and taken-for-granted habit could put the people on guard and change the expectations looked for and hoped for. In this way the minds and hearts are (pre)disposed to hearing the message and seeing the worship: not as an act of honor that one feels obliged to continue indefinitely in exchange for the fellowship and respect of one’s peers and the possibility that the whole promise corresponds to some reality. Instead one shifts from passive honor the virtuous status of Religion to an emphasis on”paying worth” (worth+ship =worship). So the motion changes from spectator to participant. The perception changes from invoking God to come to our place of worship to the reverse: inviting ourselves to focus and still ourselves and be on the lookout for God among us, as ever He abides, but which we are insensible of.

<>Intersection of The World and Thy Kingdom Come on Earth & Heaven: vote for God

We read “render to Caesar what is Caesar’s” and “following God’s way is foolishness in the eyes of The World.” So is one meant to retire from The Game of Life where all the rats are racing? Or is one meant to be in the World but be not of the World (God’s witness here and now). The message of Social Justice, “helping the least of these” and “speak Truth to Power,” has a long history. The record of intentional communities (Shakers but also the Anabaptists: followers of Menno, Hutter, Amos and so on) testifies to various ways of applying God’s Word to the small and big cares of daily social relations and livelihoods.

     The OT gives a formal structure by which God and his people are obligated to each other. The NT is not a formal, external scaffolding, but instead begins in each person’s heart. The object is to give oneself to God (his Word, his actions, his nature of being) and by not straying from that dedicated focus all sorts of things become possible and within one’s reach as authorized by God. So there is probably no specific way that the relationship each person develops year by year can be transposed into a formal, organizational set of guidance or rules. There could be an OT “app” (smartphone software application) to help one to judge a situation and its best responses. But the NT convenant is a living, individual thing that expresses itself from the inside out: by the things in one’s heart come the words, thoughts, attitudes and actions that are external and touch The World. But the influences go in both directions: the external habits and environment affects what is inside, too (birds of a feather flock together).

     In sum, things like “Christian Democrats” or “Catholic Socialists” appear to apply the Word to governance, rule-making and judgments, but owning to the “inside à out” basis of NT, it is unlikely that any organized group could adequately give form to the Spirit of the Law. Politics and Religion occupy the same public spaces and enter discussions (explicitly or implicitly), but they are not extensions of each other: God’s love does not have a political party, despite the concept of “socially conservative voters” acting as a voting block (moral majority or minority). However, it surely makes sense for voters to search their hearts individually and cast a ballot according to conscience. And if a pattern emerges whereby a sizeable group of people from diverse walks of life all choose one candidate, then so be it. But any sort of party platform built of planks from the Top Down is by definition a betrayal of the personal and individual relationship to one’s God. To be cued by party and not by one’s own searching heart is wrong.

<>IQ, EQ, CQ but also Spiritual Quotient?

In recent years the idea of ranking a person’s intelligence has become more specialized to show a person’s quotient is not only Intelligence, but Emotional and Cultural. So perhaps we can also speak of the cycle of maturation spiritually; a “Spirituality Quotient” or S.Q. Observers of human development have pointed out the idea that “Ignorance is Bliss” (one’s reach and grasp is very small, so it takes very little to gain the feeling of mastery and confidence), and the idea of “A little knowledge is a dangerous thing” and “Knowledge is power” (but also that “Power Corrupts” so perhaps then knowledge, by extension of power, also is corrupting or at least a source of vain pridefulness). Finally there is the observation that “the more one knows, the more one knows how much more is out there to know” and thus comes the realization that the further one travels the path of learning the wider grows the awareness of one’s relative ignorance.

     According to these observations one begins as a baby with very little information, knowledge and wisdom. The first few steps give a false sense of Know-it-all because the scale of the field of knowledge is small. But sustained growth expands the size of the field of knowledge, revealing how very little one actually does know. Even as the pool of information, knowledge and wisdom deepens and widens the trajectory only results in a much bigger universe of possibilities. Taken to the logical extreme, the wisest person will be the most certain of their humility and ignorance. To put this into Bible study terms: one begins with the heart of a child (trusting, ignorant, with little judgment or prejudice), then sets out to cross the ocean of learning and understanding and comes to realize how vast things are (infinity is pretty big), and finally nearing the opposite shore the person may hope to regain the heart of the child –ignorant and trusting once more, but this time through voluntary hard work instead of involuntarily by reason of inexperience and youth.

     In conclusion: there is value in Bible study, analysis, interpretation and splitting of hairs –not for its own sake or to set one apart from peers, but for sustaining a relationship with the Word (cling to the vine and then bear fruit). And by learning enough, one can achieve a realization of one’s true ignorance and humble standing (still authorized to do God’s righteous work, but without a shred of self-righteousness). Probably a direct, unspoken, incoherent and unarticulate grip on God is the most pure form of relationship of God. But most people tend to rely on words to think, express, respond and  communicate to others. So the only way to overcome the false sense of containment/comprehension of God is to learn enough through verbal means to that one’s ignorance rises into mind.

too much knowledge; the Joneses; leading early house churches

Tuesday Bible Study May 1, 2012

<>How much knowledge of Bible [Torah, Qu'ran, sutra or other holy book] is enough? Perhaps the value is not so much the command of detail and the heights that one climbs to gain an overview of deeper patterns and relationships. Instead the value comes in time and repetition: by going to the Book with a question or curiosity, the simple fact of active engagement (imagery of clinging to the vine to sustain growth) is what matters, not whether one gets to the bottom of the matter in any final sense. And yet the question remains: by deferring actions because one needs first to know more Bible, then nothing is accomplished outside of the garden of one's mind. The opposite extreme is to put all effort into deeds, without periodically going back to the Word. Best of all, perhaps, is to discover a productive cycle between incomplete knowledge and imperfect actions in the World. In other words, one should intend and hunger for better comprehension of the Word, and one should intend and hunger for tangible results in the World. But one should also accept the unending and imperfect condition under which the cycle rolls along during one's lifecourse, and then across one generation to the next, and over the course of one historical era to the next.

<>Status preoccupations. The urge to "keep up with the Jones" and to benchmark oneself to those taken to be peers, either measuring oneself as a little worse or better than those reference points. Although each follower is on a different road and has different burdens and vehicles to travel the road, in God's eyes we all are equivalent; none can claim absolute moral superiority. Sin big or small (by Worldly measures) is no different in separating a person from God and from the habit of seeking to be holy; whole; healing. By sheer repetition we tend to judge how well we are doing not in reference to God's will, but in reference to family or friends.

<>Early (primitive) church [eklesia: those called out from the others; saints in the World]. How would traditions be reproduced from site to site and from one generation to the next? Would there be squabbles over who is an authority; who is authorized to dictate a course of action, or who could perform wedding, funeral, baptism, communion, laying on of hands, exorcism, etc? With no written text (unless copied by hand of the OT set of Wisdom Books, Laws, Histories, Pentateuch/Septuagint), all scripture would be oral tradition. Certain itinerant experts of one or more books would reside for a time to tell all about these; sometimes also writing it all down. But with little institutional momentum to carry the small grouping forward, and some degree of external persecution connected to the rumor mill/grapevine of the day, it seems like the likelihood of small house churches rising and falling would be common. And yet those first 300 years it all did persist somehow.

<>Distractions and dissipation of modern times. Where once information was scarce and imagination filled in the vast spaces where information was unavailable or in a form unusable, now there is "more information than there is shit to know about." [quoted from movie, Apocalypse Now]. Where once hunger to learn more prevailed, now there is resistance to spend one's attention on the myriad versions of Bible and proliferation of titles and authors. The essential message and the teachings it comes from remains unchanged, but perhaps it is harder than ever to keep a firm grip on it. There are as many paths to that message as there are different kinds of people; a sort of modern day Tower of Babel. And yet paradoxically, this superabundance may drown rather raise us. What to do? The analogy of the Internet rate of information doubling may suggest an answer: algorithms that track the information that actually is accessed and used is one kind of filter. Word of mouth (social tagging and 'buzz' about certain content) is another filter.

several reflections, April 17 men's Bible study

also from Sunday's sermon and the youth group meeting before the worship service of April 15.

-We wrestle with the teachings of OT and NT in an effort to form a clearer picture in our minds of the descriptions and meanings of the teachings so that we may be a little holier (not to claim moral superiority, but just for the satisfaction of feeling, thinking, seeing and acting closer to our creator). And yet these feats of logic and memory are unlikely to lead to Truth Breaking Forth in any but partial and fleeting flashes. So then, is the exercise futile? No, much as the image of the fruit and the vine, the effort to engage and wrestle with the Word fills our waking minds, and to that extent excludes the fluff and noise of everyday concerns. In and of itself, daily visits to the Word have meaning, therefore. In addition, as we travel life's road, it is helpful to bring questions and anxieties to the Word since it is unchanging. For if we rely on internal reasoning and the acrobatic powers of rationalization, then anything we do can be self-confirming, self-authorizing, self-validating, self-righteous. Only be going to an external point of reference like the life of Jesus and his followers, as well as the foundation of OT that he lived in can we expect a better compass.

-All right, so we are forgiven by the atonement paid in Rabbi Jesus of Nazareth. But the power of this forgiveness of sins big and small for all time comes by accepting that gift. It is given to us, but until we accept it, acknowledge it, and return thanks for it, then the full value is unrealized. This is the Love (caritas) of God and the spirit from the Holy Ghost (numous; numinous breath of life; animating force). But then to do wrong; to go against life and what is good in the knowledge that one can seek forgiveness by remorse and repenting –this is an abuse of the relationship. To love one's enemy, to wish peace upon one and all, to turn the other cheek when insulted –these things say, in effect, in God's creation "it is all good," warts and all. In other words, this Love of God is a power that makes all of life and the world a one-way, one-size fits all, all is blessed phenomenon (love 'em all: the washed and the unwashed, the pure and the polluted, the friend and the enemy –and hardest of all, perhaps, the uncaring). Even Lucifer and his minions are in this creation and have a place in it; otherwise God would disallow it.

-Where "the rubber meets the road" in our relationships to God and to each other, Christian (fulfilled 'Jews' covenanted at first by the OT) or otherwise, is in one's heart: right(eous) thinking and feeling/intention leads to right(eous) actions and goals and course of events. And so the effort of Bible study and reflection, haggling over meanings and cross-connections, patterns and relationships recorded is valuable in a few different ways: it occupies one's mind, it ties what may appear random events into functioning connections, and it gives guidance or counterpoint to the bedlam of one's mind. And yet there is no moral superiority to claim in any prideful polishing of one's knowledge. It is significant only to the extent that it strengthens or develops one's heart: that place where love of one's God and one's neighbor begin.

-Living in the model and going forth authorized by Jesus to be God's hands and feet, ears and eyes means that we are living for God and for one's neighbor, not for oneself or one's (self) justification. By definition, then, we become connected to matters beyond our own personal concerns; thereby enriched by playing a part in bigger things.

-Suppose that the unit of discipleship, development in spiritual maturity and path of holy intent is not the worshipping congregation but instead is the individual person. Then our time together is important but temporary, while our relationship and learning of and through and for God is enduring. From this standpoint, then, the decision and organizational difficulties, clash in feeling or respect or personalities are trivial, much as they irritate or give pleasure. The pangs are urgent and hard to dismiss, but these are not what endures between the person and her or his maker.

-Gospel of John: he is selective in the episodes he gives so that we may glimpse something of the lessons to learn. But as a result, we have no fixed doxa or dogma to proclaim. We have questions and possibilities and to the extent that we wrestle with these meanings, we also construct the learning in our own historical moment and lifestage. In other words, the knowledge is built, not transmitted ready-made.

-About breaking break & cup of communion: while Jews of the time and also today have the custom of wine at Sabbath and pesach/Passover, and also the bread will be blessed, Rabbi Jesus does something novel by putting these elements into the hands of his followers to be his proxy: the bread his body, the wine his life. And while we are living and thus form one piece of earthly creation, this act of communion is a way of accepting (the all important step of acknowledging and returning thanks for grace; love; forgiveness) Jesus and by extension the things he stands for in his lived example and spoken teachings. Thus to take the communion is to subscribe to his story; the story of forgiving all of everybody. We are inside of God's creation, but in communion that creation (Jesus, Son of Man, heir to fallen world and holy striving) is now inside of us.

What gospels? Paul on the move

The OT was much in evidence in multiple copies around the time of Jesus, with peripatetic rabbis who created copies where they went. But the events of the NT including the gospels must have started in oral form, eventually taking form in Greek, the common language around the Mediterranean basin at the time. Looking at online estimated dates for the various NT books, it is likely that the path Paul took in the letters he wrote would have been one without any hardcopy; just word of mouth retelling the story of Jesus' life and teachings. Neither would there be chapter and verse references or the concept of a bundle of related books to comprise a NT. When did someone coin this term, in distinction to, but of equal weight to the OT?

Question: how different would things be in an all-oral worship tradition? No publishers and editions and translations. The focus would be on the thread of the teachings and stories, with variations that crept in along the retellings across generations. There would be no liturgist as such, although there could be someone reciting the stories. And if the OT were still written, but NT simply oral, then like the synogogue, a reader would still bring the printed word to life for congregants.